Welcome to my new blog celebrating my weird!
Now I am not saying everyone who likes something different is weird, we all like what we like and we all do certain things, follow different groups, have different hobbies and that is amazing and I am just taking a word ” weird” and using it to celebrate what makes me unique. What makes me, me! And most of the time, it is a little quirky, weird or strange, kind of far out there hobbies etc. Hence the “show me your weird”! I want to hear all about what makes you, you! We are amazing and special and we all love different things and I bet some people are scared to share. But not me! I want to share my likes/loves/passions and hopefully make some wonderful acquaintances in the process, and encourage you to share what you love.
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Bit of a back story…
This will be my second blog – my first blog Butterfly child is all about my family, adventures and books, lots of books – so what’s this going to be about…
I have always enjoyed a good comic/graphic novel and this slowly spread to anime shows. But before Netflix we didn’t have much choice so I took what I could. One day I randomly searched for Avatar the Last Airbender on Netflix and lots of other wonderful anime’s popped up. So after getting reacquainted with some of my old favourites (Attack on a Titan and Full Metal Alchemist being a couple) I settled in and loved it. Normally my tv plans are either just what’s on, what my husband is watching or whatever is on Disney Junior. But here was something I had enjoyed previously, and I could watch for an hour before going to bed. And as you are all aware Netflix is a sod for then recommending everything under the sun for you, if it is even slightly related. Enter Asian dramas, specifically Korean Dramas.
Thanks to Netflix for the wonderful selection of kdramas…
Skip ahead a little bit and roughly two years ago, after ignoring some recommendations for a while I decided to give some ago! And wow, I fell down that hole super quick. I have always had a thing for languages anyway, so I have watched many programmes / films with subtitles in my past so this wasn’t too strange. Although, my family were initially a little lost, but they’ve always accepted me for my quirky ways, they weren’t going to stop now.
I fell in love with the drama, which is funny because I am not a fan of the over dramatic soap operas of the English variety, but there is just something about a Korean drama that draws you in, and before you know it, you’re 15 episodes in and wondering how much sleep you really need, and if you can fit just 3 more hour long episodes in the next half an hour!
I am still a huge fan of a good drama and part of this blog will be sharing my favourites, reviews and finding some new dramas to watch.
Next on my to watch list.
http://asianwiki.com/Abyss_(Korean_Drama)
This was just the beginning of my journey and I am still only at the beginning really. I was aware of kpop but I never paid much attention, I was happy with my dramas.
Last October, I was watching Graham Norton! I really enjoy his show, so it was just on one evening, and he had a Korean pop band on, I saw them dance and thought they were good but still I didn’t really pay much attention. I am a pinterest addict and have you ever done that thing where you look up one small innocent thing for a mermaid birthday party and before you know it you’re watching a video on the stingrays in the wild.
Well that is exactly what happened except with BTS, I sort of remembered them from Graham Norton so I found and I watched a few more videos and thought wow, they are really good, and can sing and rap and….. well you can probably guess the rest. I googled them just to find out their names and who is who and that is how I fell into the kpop hole. I don’t believe this is unique – honestly it’s the start of quite a few fans. Seriously, it has memes and everything! 😂
I am now definitely a fully fledged ARMY – although slightly older then the average fan and I am part of a wonderful group of “senior” fans, I am using that word with caution, we are a group of over 25 year olds who all enjoy BTS and other kpop music. And although, I thought I had already fallen deep into the hole, it turns out the wonderland goes on and on and on if you let it. I now have quite a few groups I enjoy, a few I love as much as BTS and some I can’t wait to look more into and continue on my journey into the Wonderland.
So what?
Why have I chosen to branch out and write a new blog for this and not just keep it in with my Butterfly child blog. Well, my other blog is all about my life with my family, all my wacky adventures and things we do together. It is also where I keep all my book reviews and my mainstream hobbies, lets say. Now I am happy to share my weird on that blog and you shouldn’t be afraid to share whatever you want wherever you want. But I wanted a specific blog about my journey into this new wonderland of music/dancing and drama, and I am happy to share with with my Butterfly readers but I don’t want them to feel obliged because they follow me over there, so I am starting A new blog journey. I will still write for both. I just wanted a dedicated blog to feel free to gush to my hearts content.
Warning! I am a massive Sope fan – Hobi (JHope) and Yoongi (Suga) are definitely my bias. So there will probably a lot of chatter about them. If you follow me over on Twitter, you will probably see this! 😂😂😍😍
So why this and why now?
There is a very special reason I want to write a blog on this and share it. Some people say that things come into your life when you need them and I feel this is true for my new found Kpop obsession. It reminded me to celebrate what makes me unique, what makes me happy and mostly not to be ashamed to celebrate this.
Something blasted into my life and made me remember who I am, appreciate who I am and has given me back some of my confidence I had lost. I didn’t become a completely different person as a mum but I definitely faded slightly, its really hard to explain and this is the only way to describe it. I absolutely love being a mum more than anything in the world, but I also quite liked who I was before I became a mum and with all the pressure we put on ourselves and everything going on when you have small children, I think we all lose a bit of ourselves, and we evolve and change. This is absolutely needed to look after our children and I love being a mum but I want to keep the crazy, quirky, confident part of me too, and I think somewhere I pushed this part of me aside. Returning to work, writing my blog, my kids being more independent and lots of other factors have all worked together and I was starting to get to a really good place.
The final piece that has made me truly feel better and more like my old self but with all this added awesomeness that comes with being a mum, was finding something I enjoy for myself. Rediscovering something just for me and not feeling guilty for it, in fact not only not feeling guilty but embracing it and celebrating it. Mum guilt has a lot to answer for, every decision we make always comes with a small or large bit of mum guilt attached, but we should all be allowed a break, a rest, or to enjoy things and do things for ourselves without feeling bad about doing it or worse still not taking a risk of doing something because of mum guilt.
In my ever changing attitude to be a better mum and person, I stepped back and realised it is ok to want to do things for myself sometimes and to say yes! This is a hugely important to me, saying yes and doing things I want to do, not just going along with what everyone else wants, I get to have a choice and do things to make me happy too. Anyway going back to celebrating what makes me special, I have always been a lover of collecting new hobbies and interests/ obsessions -,healthy obsessions like books, music and tv shows not drugs or anything – but the last few years, I have put myself last in everything. It’s ok and I am content I did this, as I think we need to do that those first few years to get through being a new mum. Our children rely on us a lot so we have to become less selfish and more altruistic. It’s why we have unconditional love and it is what makes me a good mum. I will always put the kids first, this is a given but I am now discovering I have a bit of freedom and what is most wonderful is; I have children that want to know about me, want to know what I like and they encourage me as much as I do them. This new found realisation has lead me to want to share this with like minded people, and carry on my journey to being the best version of me I can be.
So, this blog will effectively be another look into my chaotic brain (my other blog is very similar in that regard) but this will be my continuing education into this whole new world that has opened up for me. I have given myself chance to discover new things and rather than going back to my old self, I am moving forward to be this even better version of my past and current self. My children are and will always be my first priority but I love I am getting to experience new things at 33. It’s wonderful! I hope you enjoy following me into this crazy, chaotic new wonderland.
It’s going to feature more than just BTS but as they are due in Wembley, this is where I will be kicking off, but it will have other groups, dramas, artists. It will also branch into my other hobbies and interests such as Harry Potter, but that is for another day.
The countdown for Wembley is on so!
If you want to share how you fell down the hole or if you want share your loves and passions please do follow me and comment when you want to.
Heart and Seoul 